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How to stop judging myself so much? Thing-A-Day Day 6…Digging this!

Friday, February 6th, 2009

Thing-A-Day Day 6 I’m really liking this project simply because it makes me loosen up on my heavy self-critique.  No time for that!  Of course, I still do some…but it’s nice to start finish and let something go in a very small period of time.  I think that I have always looked too far ahead.  Regarding most things.  I think of something I want to do, then I think of everything I have to do to get to the end, and I am tired already!  Now, it’s almost as if I cut out the envisioning stage…I mean, I envision the thing in my mind…thing being anyTHING that I want to do but now don’t take as much time doing it once in my mind, just act.  It’s quite liberating.

In case you don’t want to look at the thing-a-day site, here’s what I made today:

Padparadash Swarovski Drops - the hard part was making the other side!

Padparadash Swarovski Drops - the hard part was making the other side!

Yesterday was kind of rough since I had to go to Honda AGAIN…  This little click clack bang bang sound in my car when I started it and hit the accelerator…that was very annoying and not very little even though I said that first.  I have been to Honday 4+ times in the past 12 months and spent altogether too much money on my Nick (Nick got his name because within 24 hours of getting him, I had nicked the back bumper putting Jeannie’s new bike in and then gotten a rogue rock ding on the windshield on Wolfe Grade which is still there).  So when I went in yesterday for the blinking oil light and the very annoying rattle, I was PISSED.  And I was as much of a heartless bitch as I could muster…which means not much.  But I did manage to say this: “When I came in the last 3 times there were valid problems that were addressed, but the rattle never went away, so I don’t think I should have to pay a diagnosis fee for something I paid you to diagnose 3 times prior. “  Whew!  I felt so mean saying that!

So the guys were afraid of me and my wrath (NOT) and said they’d try to figure out the rattle in the morning (I told them it was worst in the am when the car was cold) but also noted that in the past year I had not gotten an oil change (!!).  I guess I’d been to the shop so many times, in my brain I thought there was oil changing and basic maintenance happening…  So I got a call this morning: definitely oil and filter change needed, and they found what they are presuming to be the cause of my knock knock who the bleep is there rattle.  Here it is:

I got a rock

I got a rock

Really?  A rock?  Here’s a pic for size reference:

THIS?!?

THIS?!?

I am taking bets.  Who thinks this was the problem all year…under or on top of my heat shield.  They replace my exhaust manifold and an oxygen sensor…where exactly is my heat shield?  I’ll let you know if the clacking is gone tomorrow morning.  Keep in mind: There was a definite rattle for exactly 1 second on my way home from the rock-ectomy.  Well, at least I got my oil changed.

OH!  Did I mention: I was going to check my own oil when the light started flashing…Reached down, pulled lever and:

I think it's not good when this is sitting on your passenger seat

I think it's not good when this is sitting on your passenger seat

Not good.

Not good.

They wanted $200 to restring the cable since you can’t just glue this back on…when he told me that on the phone I busted an F-bomb and he cracked up.  He apologized for laughing but said it was unexpected.  He showed me how to use pliers and pull the cable without the lever…yeah me.  Have pliers will travel.

On my way home from the shop, some dude in a truck honked at me and said “I can fix those dents on your car” and I was in a well populated area that I knew so I pulled over in the Wells Fargo Parking lot and let him look at the dentage on poor Nick that I refuse to get fixed because each dent “incident” is considered COLLISION and therefore would raise my rates and cost $250 deductable EACH minimum (if Allstate was nice it would be $250, otherwise it would be comprehensive and $500 deductable each).  I think that’s how it goes.  In any case, I had 2 major dents on the passenger side of Nick from parking lot FAILS.  None of them mine directly…indirectly my fault because I had the stupidity to park my car.

The first one happened in a school parking lot while I was chapperoning a Great America event for Jeannie when Nick was still a baby.  The second one happened when I pulled into a spot and some old jerk in a huge SUV backed out of the spot to my right with his wheels curved to the right and kept going even as Nick crumpled with a sound similar to crushing a can until he (the jerk) couldn’t move any more.  Then had the nerve to look at my car and say it wasn’t that bad and look at his and there was no damage so we should be ok…I was speechless.  I got his name and # on a post it…and lost it.   And a certain boyfriend of mine has been disappointed in me ever since…  Long story…but you’re used to that aren’t you?

The dude in the truck (the truck was labeled something like Dent Doctor) said he’d fix both big dents on the spot for $300.  I really don’t want to know if I got ripped off.  I just know it didn’t cost me $500-$1000 and I didn’t want a perfect looking door (since I park at Yahoo! where the spaces are so small even motorcycles have to worry about getting dinged) because I would only be hugely depressed the next time I parked at work and got another ding.  So I did it.  And there’s turtle wax on it right now so I can’t see HOW lovely Nick is minus dents, but when he’s clean, I’ll look and be happy.  So there. :P

Thing-A-Day

Monday, February 2nd, 2009

I’m ready to conquer February!  How’s that?  I was in LA talking to my friend Cindy who told me about this project called Thing-A-Day.  You make something every day of February and post it to their blog.  I finished my first project just before midnight on the 1st and spent a little too much time trying to photograph it…but here it is:
My Day 1

I’m pretty excited about it, so I hope you don’t mind…I just might post here too with whatever I decide to create.

For now though…off to sleep…starting Feb off with bad sleep hygeine is probably wrong. :)

night night

My talk in LA at The Animation Guild

Saturday, January 31st, 2009

I just got home from a week in LA…which all happened because the Southern California Animation Guild flew me down to talk at their membership meeting.  What did I talk about you ask?  Ergonomics of course.  Kevin, the head of the guild, had read a couple columns I had written for AnimationMentor.com, had contacted me over a year ago to come give a talk, but I had to cancel my trip last year due to the slightly urgent tonsillectomy and soft palate reconstruction.  I just read the meeting notes and I thought they were pretty good, so I am posting them to you.

http://animationguildblog.blogspot.com/2009/01/no-pain-no-pain.html

Happy 2009!

Wednesday, December 31st, 2008

Ringing in 2009 at a big fat whopping 158 pounds, I am far from my goal of 135, but definitely working on it.  I start with this line because it’s a lot of what I think about.  Since the last surgery I have been doing wonderfully, except recently I have been sleeping over 12 hours a night and dark circles are making a comeback under my eyes.  It’s worrysome, and today on our way home from Novato (where we had lunch with my old friend Brad - Hi Brad!) I started nodding behind the wheel.  After 12 hours of sleep, a taco salad and 2 cups of coffee, that shouldn’t happen…so I am scared and sad…And have been on a 1200 calorie low carb diet since December 15 with only 4 pounds off to show for it (I know you’re supposed to lose it slow to keep it off, but I would still like to wake up with curves in the right places…overnight weight loss would be fine by me!).  Grr.  Depresso entry.  Sorry.  We also picked up badminton again after my sprained ankle, and as soon as my freaking hammer squished finger heals, I will get back into yoga and light weights.

Here’s something awesome: When I was in ballet, oh so many years ago, I had a best friend at SFB.  Her name was Britta.  I called her Brit-Brit.  She called me Shelb-Shelb.  She lived in Daly City, so her family let me stay with them whenever I could (mostly summers and Nutcracker season, but many Fridays as well since we always had class on Saturday).  Britta and I lost touch when I left the school to go to high school (the ballet school told me I had to consider “home schooling” going into the next level which I thought meant I was going to be dumb and not go to college so I chose school), but her mom always remembered me and tracked me down right before Britta got married about 5 years ago.  I was invited to be a surprise guest…I was SO EXCITED.  So excited that even though the day of her wedding was the same day I was released from the hospital with kidney stones still partying in my urinary tract, I wanted to go.  David and Courtland had to very sternly tell me I was INSANE and sat with me while I tearfully called the hotel and left a message for Britta’s mom that I would not be attending.

Fast forward 5 years and I still had not seen Britta.  She and her husband lived in the Caribbean and until two years ago we hadn’t even spoken on the phone.  When we finally spoke on the phone, they had just moved back to Daly City and I was just about to have my MMA.  We again lost touch until December 7 when Britta was going through her mom’s address book looking for people to invite to her mom’s surprise birthday party and found my number.  I was invited to the party and 3 days later got to see the whole family again.  It was awesome.  Amazing.  Britta looked the same and we just picked up where we left off…it was just NICE.  So comfortable and nice.  AND Britta has a goal.  She wants to lose some weight and take a ballet class.  It’s funny how people can travel through life, taking different paths here and there, changing little bits about themselves, yet still be, for lack of a better vocabulary, the same.  You know what I mean.  Not the same person…a richer person who knows more and has been through lilfe-shaping things…but a person who even today, if we met brand new, might still end up being a good friend.  Those ones are hard to find.  And you can bet your bottom that she and I will reach our goals and start taking a ballet class from Zoltan (another story) together.  (By the way, Britta has a cat she named Shelby - teehee *big grin*)

So this year has been great.  I know lots of stuff has happened, but everything has had a positive outcome…as in, I believe I am better off today than I was one year ago…and I aim to keep that trend going.  Tonight Nicholas is coming over and we will very mellow-ly watch tons of Psych and if we’re up at 12 we will all three pour bubbly stuff into glasses, clink them together and wish each other a very Happy New Year.  Which it will be.  I have creed.

Happy New Year to you ALL!

xoxo

Shelby

Two Years Ago This December 26…

Thursday, December 4th, 2008

Holy cow and a half!  Okay it’s been a while.  Since I last wrote I have gained weight (ankle fail), hired a professional organizer (consequently got a horrible upper respiratory cold due to *cough* dust *cough* - but kept on breathing), took a mini vacay to Half Moon Bay with step mom Anne, was spontaneously invited and spontaneously accepted trip to Hawaii for a week before Thanksgiving, had two Thanksgiving dinners (=more weight most likely), skipped out on the NECE in Vegas going on right now (National Ergonomics Conference and Exposition), and put Mochi kitty on a diet.  I’m sure there are more things that happened, but those are the highlights…now let us look at the breathing part of those highlights.  Did you notice?  If ANYTHING was going to test the efficacy of the last roto-rootering of my throat, it was that cold.  Dr. Li for the win!  Party on Wayne!

Oh.  I also had a birthday.  12th Annual 24th.  I had my party at Caprino’s down the street.  There were over 40 people in attendance and I had an absolute ball.  I even hooked up with a cake gal and got myself (in addition to a wonderful raved-about opera cake) a special Shelby cake.

I have now spent about an hour trying to upload photos.  Mood = bad.  Need heat (thought I turned it on–evidently not enough) and food.  TBC.  Sorry!

Lag Lag Lag

Saturday, October 4th, 2008

Left you hanging…as usual.  It’s not that I didn’t think of you all the time, but as time went on, more and more things were added to my mental list of “things to blog” and of course that resulted in overwhelming myself into silence.  Well, I’m sure you are all used to that by now.  So where were we?

Last we spoke I was on my way to the MMA “Reunion”…which is not right.  Reunion implies we had met before.  So…it was the MMA (Maxillo Mandibular Advancement, not Mixed Martial Arts) gathering.  And it was rad.  Met all sorts of cool people and put faces to names of other cool people.  All in all a wonderful day and someday I will post pictures.  Isn’t it enough I’m writing?  :)

The day after that, my frog died.  Slider, aka Sticky-E (his street name) passed away and I was sad sad sad.  I was so sad and upset that my squeamish better half offered to remove Sticky-E’s remains so that I wouldn’t have to.  Pretty serious.  And I know…it’s just a frog.  But I liked him.  No frogs legs jokes here (believe me I’ve heard them all).  That night I cleaned the terrarium and every morning since then I have walked out of my bedroom and felt a very big THUMP of guilt when I see the empty cage.  Yes…GUILT.  I think I killed him.  I mean, my only job was to keep him alive and I only managed to do that for 5 years.  These guys are supposed to live on average 10.  I am not a model frog owner.  He was sometimes hungry.  His cage was not cleaned as frequently as it should have been.  He did always have water…but you know, I could have done better.  I guess I also could have done worse.  But that was the end, I think, of my frog-owning days.  Now I am cats and gecko mom.

Synopsis of lately things: sprained my ankle last Friday.  Lovely.  But AWESOME NEWS:  It is healing like a CHARM!!!  I sprained my ankle 5 years ago when I was mis-diagnosed with narcolepsy and it took 8 MONTHS in a walking cast to heal.  Same ankle, same inversion sprain…and I’m thrilled with the progress.  Of course no badminton for a while, and yoga is on hold (I see the fat cells rallying) but ever since my MMA surgery I heal faster and on top of that, actually don’t get hurt/sick as much at all.  A credit to oxygen and sleep.  Hooray!  I’m a fan.

Bad news (and maybe someone of doctor knowledge can help here):  My nausea and vomiting is back.  I notice now a very metallic taste in the back of my throat which I figured was post nasal drip or something, but I’ve had PND my whole life and never been a puking machine like I am now.  It’s very attractive, yes, but sometimes I want to be able to turn that whole projectile thing off.  You know?  I think I have something wrong with my stomach.  Maybe from too many NSAIDs which I cannot take anymore except in emergency and only if I am not going to lie down anytime soon.  So I am sitting here with a metallic taste in the back of my mouth and nausea though not so bad, and any moment I will mosey into the bathroom (I pretend it’s on MY terms), pull my hair back into a ponytail (eeww we know why) and get up close and personal with my newly repaired (thanks manager Dan!) porcelain pal.  Not happy, Bob.

On other notes: drinksapp.com go go go!  My car has cost me $2700 this year.  Sudoku is still addictive especially on the DS.  My birthday is on Friday.  I will be 24 again (12th annual).

Happy Saturday night!  I hope you have an awesome weekend and that you spend absolutely NONE of it unnecessarily communing with your commode.

They don’t wanna see me…NO MORE!

Tuesday, September 9th, 2008

My title is probably not funny unless you’re Cynthia.

This morning (Monday) I went to see Dr. Li, my favorite doctor in the world.  He looked in my throat and pronounced me stitch free.  I wondered why I still had sore throats after talking and he explained that while the stitches were in my throat was reacting to the foreign material and only now after the stitches are gone can the tissue fully heal.

I had emailed Dr. Li over the weekend and mentioned that my chin still hurt.  I found this out on Friday when I leaned on my chin…or did I lean on my hand?  I propped myself up with my hand on my chin?  Oh you know what I’m saying.  And I felt pain…only on the right side…where the screw that broke lives.  So Dr. Li prodded that area and shook his head…I’m sure he wishes at times that I just wasn’t so darned sensitive.  I said it was fine.  Something I would live with I’m sure.  And he said give it some time and we’ll revisit it.  But then…THEN…he said “Keep in touch.  Email me in a month. I don’t need to see you.”  Yowzah!!!  I mean, I know I will have a follow up sleep study at some point, but I guess it’s true.  He doesn’t need to see me again.  *tear*  Now what am I going to blog about?

Two steps forward one step back…and then bounce forward again

Friday, September 5th, 2008

Can I just say that 3 day weekends and the following short work weeks are awesome? I think I just said it.

Tuesday morning I got a desperate call from my boss…co-worker who was supposed to teach class was not feeling well, was there any way I could teach?  Sure.  Why not.  So, I went in to work and walked straight over to the classroom where I proceeded to talk to over 30 people for 1.5 hours straight.  Good thing I’d stocked up on iced coffee and ice water.  But alas, after class my throat was none so happy.  And then I had to do 3-4 more evaluations in Mission College no less (I hate shuttling around, in all honesty).  Needless to say, I was absolutely thrilled when 6 rolled around and I could stop talking until 7 when we walked down the street to Gin Mon for dinner.

Wednesday morning I woke up with…yes, a sore throat.  It actually woke me up a few times during the night too which was lovely.  I got to work and found out I was getting on the shuttle again midday to Great America, but being as it was my Friday, I wasn’t too concerned.  I stocked up again on iced coffee and water, and plunged in.  At the end of the day I STILL had a sore throat.  I mentioned this to my boss, because I noticed that next week has me teaching again, and I am a little not thrilled about that, but maybe next week will be better.  Best way to find your limits is to test them?  Well, that’s about where I am.

Yesterday (Thursday) I did not talk for over 8 hours.  Not even to the kitties.  And I feel MUCH better.  Lesson learned?  Probably not.  Next weekend is the MMA “reunion” of sorts in Sunnyvale, and what to want to bet I talk a little too much?  What else am I supposed to do?  Peeps from out of state are going to be there!  Must talk…must chat…  Talk to you later!

One Week Pain Free

Saturday, August 30th, 2008

Hello Party People.

So…Monday I woke up…with no sore throat.  Yes throat aggravation and stitches awareness, but no pain.  And this continued…all week.  Hooray!!!  Today I have a sore throat but of the allergy/am I getting sick kind and no real stitches awareness…could those buggers be gone?  Another Hooray!

So, although feeling like I am coming down with something (though my ears are involved so maybe is just allergies) on a 3 day weekend is not ideal, I have high hopes for my future.  Have a wonderful holiday weekend!  Be safe!

What is normal?

Thursday, August 21st, 2008

Dr. Li told me to let him know if my throat still hurt on Friday.  It’s 50 minutes til Friday and I’m not comfy so I wrote him an email.  I mentioned I might be a wussmonster because really, what gives?  When he looked in my throat on Monday he said it looked great.  I would think he’d have noticed and/or mentioned if it looked inflamed still.  Or maybe most people deal with this sore achey uncomfortable throat and don’t complain as much as I do.

Tonight I had a wonderful surprise.  My friend David spontaneously came over, and then I got a phone call from #1 saying she’d gone to Ikea and got stuck this side of Santa Cruz so did we want to get dinner in Palo Alto?  Yeahoo!  David and I hopped in the car(pool lane) and met her at Nola’s (New Orlean’s fare) where I realised that in New Orleans…everyone eats SHELLFISH.  hahah  I got a burger.

I also found out that when there are 3 people at the table and the place is LOUD, my throat will hurt if I want the people I am with to hear me.  But my burger was excellent…as were the beignets after that.  Of course.  When is deep fried dough smothered in powdered sugar with dipping sauces NOT good?

Tomorrow I am off to Murphy…wherever that is.  I looked on a map and I still don’t know.  I just know I should get water and gas in Stockton and not pick up any hitchhikers.  My sister is going to a wedding on Saturday afternoon so I am to play Super Aunt Shelby while she is away.  Can do.  Have a great weekend, all!  Revel in your non-sore throats.